This is going to be short.. Im at Honolulu airport now, waiting to board my plane to Jakarta through Manila. During my stay in Hawaii, i get a lot of things done.. it was very satisfying meeting all the people who have been significant in my honolulu experience... I have this assignment to write a travel article for Femina about Hawaii. I want to make a "behind the scene Hawaii" something that people dont know about hawaii the dark stuff.. not the touristy stuff.. and I realize 6 years i live there.. i have no pictures of me with the scenery as my background.. i have tons of pics in hawaii but they're all events, parties, gatherings, meetings.. no scenery.. It just hit me that sometimes when you live in a place you take things for granted.. I realize there's lots of things i wished i could've done... but it wont happen now.. I will leave in less than 48 hours! I tried to cram as many things I can, as many pictures I can take.. I walk around everywhere and take pictures of places that i go with jason, my friends and my workmates.. it definitely feel weird.. having all these flashes of memories coming back to me... but at least, now i have those memories recorded in my memory card..
A lot of things change in Honolulu.. some got worse some got better.. Deffinitiley I have mixed feelings when i left this morning.. excited and sad at the same time..
I have a lot of sweet memories in Hawai, for example finding my husband jason.. discovering lifetime friendships .. finding myself and growing professionally.. Im so happy to have had this opportnity to experience all these.. As I look at it now.. I know I've been away from home long enough.. 9 years ... now it's time to go home and start a new life.. a more exciting life.. a more progressive, exciting life... yet..it still sounds scary sometimes.. I feel so comfortable with the organized life i have here.. Being in a chaotic environment and be exposed to the unknown... definitely scary... I wish i have the strength to keep on going ... I know Jason and I have each other to rely on... I Wish my plan will work.. I wish.... wish me luck...
